So the title says it all. I'm stressed to the max.
Work has been absolutely chaotic. I'm in the middle of one marketing plan and I'm making all of the preparations for the one next month. I finally wrapped up my August plan, but there are still a few pieces here and there that need to be taken care of. I'm planning a filming for next week, finishing up board letter materials (which are due Wednesday), and Trustee pieces (for the HUGE event on Friday).
Then there is school. I am in my second week of school and I feel in over my head. At least twice a day I question if grad school was the right step for my life right now. I've got so much reading and I'm struggling trying to have a social life, crossfit, and read.
Then there is home. I haven't planned my meals this week and I'm nervous that I won't be able to comply with my challenge rules. I did pretty well camping, but the work week is a different story. Mom is having surgery on Friday, which I'm trying not to stress about, but the trying isn't going to well. I am having a GIANT case of marriage envy.
Am I happy now? Yes I am, so why am I freaking out so much? I just feel lost. I believe I'm having a quarter-life crisis. Though I'm perfectly happy, I don't feel like I am where I am supposed to be in life. It is my past and my expectations that I need to let go of.
God is trying to teach me something, I know it, but I'm really struggling right now.
I get daily devotional emails and Thursday's ended in the perfect prayer. The one I should be saying to myself at times like these.
Dear Lord, I am tired, and I can't figure things out. Please help me see Your part in this equation. Where my strength ends is where Your will begins. Help me, Lord, to look to You for my very next step. I will wait in calm expectation. In Jesus' Name, amen.
Work has been absolutely chaotic. I'm in the middle of one marketing plan and I'm making all of the preparations for the one next month. I finally wrapped up my August plan, but there are still a few pieces here and there that need to be taken care of. I'm planning a filming for next week, finishing up board letter materials (which are due Wednesday), and Trustee pieces (for the HUGE event on Friday).
Then there is school. I am in my second week of school and I feel in over my head. At least twice a day I question if grad school was the right step for my life right now. I've got so much reading and I'm struggling trying to have a social life, crossfit, and read.
Then there is home. I haven't planned my meals this week and I'm nervous that I won't be able to comply with my challenge rules. I did pretty well camping, but the work week is a different story. Mom is having surgery on Friday, which I'm trying not to stress about, but the trying isn't going to well. I am having a GIANT case of marriage envy.
Am I happy now? Yes I am, so why am I freaking out so much? I just feel lost. I believe I'm having a quarter-life crisis. Though I'm perfectly happy, I don't feel like I am where I am supposed to be in life. It is my past and my expectations that I need to let go of.
God is trying to teach me something, I know it, but I'm really struggling right now.
I get daily devotional emails and Thursday's ended in the perfect prayer. The one I should be saying to myself at times like these.
Dear Lord, I am tired, and I can't figure things out. Please help me see Your part in this equation. Where my strength ends is where Your will begins. Help me, Lord, to look to You for my very next step. I will wait in calm expectation. In Jesus' Name, amen.
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